Life Lately

Remember when I talked about how Spring makes me have anxiety (add to that, Allergies!)? Well, it's way worse right now.

So many things are transpiring soon. Is transpiring a word? I don't have enough internet to Google that right now so we are going with it.

In a couple of days, my sister who has been living with me for a long time is leaving. I am having crazy anxiety about it. She's my partner, my sister wife! Not really, but that's kind of what it's felt like during all of the times when David has left. She arrived shortly after we did and saved me from myself. My anxiety was high back then and went away after she got here. She's my bestie! Not only is she leaving now, we are also moving! I won't say when and I will say where: Italy. Remember when we originally thought that's where we were going? I refound a scrapbook where I had written about and then crossed out our PCS move to Italy, Germany.  Here we go again!

Nevie got a haircut! Thanks Chels! 

I'm finding it quite difficult to function. Not only are my physical symptoms pretty bad (general shakiness, upset stomach, diarrhea) but my mental state isn't super either. I am on the brink of tears but haven't yet let them out. I'm afraid if I do, I won't stop for days. I have places to be and things to do so that can't happen. Yet. I'll wait for a late night and/or a hot shower. lolz.

I think I'm writing about this because I want to end the stigma of mental health issues. My sister shared this website and it really got me to thinking about the whole taboo surrounding behavioral health. I've talked about my depression before, but I don't know that I've talked as much about my situational anxiety. I'm sure I'm not the only one I know that struggles with it. I've talked to my doctor(s) about it and I feel pretty confident with how I'm handling it so far.

Phew. This was actually just supposed to be an informational post about our upcoming move but thus, it turned into this. I've got to get back to my roots in blogging.

In other happy news, I got my nails done in Cheb. I call them my mermaid nails. I haven't yet taken a picture because I have plans for the picture. I need more sunshine and someone to help me though so you'll have to wait. Did you know they have the best Corn Flake chicken at this restaurant in Cheb? It's muy delicioso. It's in a cellar which makes it even cooler. Plus, that sweet chili sauce though. So if you're ever in the Czech Republic near the border of Germany, this is the place to go.

Also, Sadie lost her front tooth. It was so stressful. She was crying and so upset even before it came out. She has a fear of growing up. So do I. It's so cute though. I love the small lisp that accompanies a missing front tooth. I also love this girl. She is so amazingly thoughtful. Almost on the daily she writes me a note or draws me a picture of some kind. Warms my heart.

Before. You can see the tears in her eyes.  
Anyway, thus ends the randomness that are my blog posts. Hope you all are doing well!


  1. hugs and prayers. it will be ok. - Brig

    1. Keep your head up. Mental health's a bad-word-I've-taken-up-saying-recently-when-I'm-extra-angry (I almost don't feel guilty about that). Call Rebs if ever you need to get anything off your chest and need a non-judgmental shoulder. In the mean time, Italy?!? Some people have all the fun!