Baby Love

It's a good day today. I gave my lesson and I think it was successful. I hope anyway. It's a good day today. David and I are breaking the sabbath and cleaning house. We are totally getting a lot accomplished. I'll take pictures of the finished product. It wouldn't be a big deal but we are completely switching things around. The room that used to be shared by all of us is now just Jacksons room. We moved into the other room and I think it's going to be fabulous. We can now ignore him when he wakes up just to wake up. Because that room is so big there will be plenty of room for baby #2...who is already on its way! That's right, you heard me. We are having another one.

It took my some time to be okay with it. I was in denial at first. I am now really excited. Jackson will have a sibling close in age to play with (mostly torture I'm sure), and we will be done sooner! We will still be young when they get older and will have plenty of time to enjoy them. I think it's going to be a boy but I don't know for sure yet. I kind of hope it's a girl but I won't be sad if it's not.

I'm kind of tired of people telling me I should have lots of babies. I think today is the first day I actually have stopped caring about it though. In the past I would have dwelt on it and made a big deal but because of the self-love I am working on, it's helping me to realize that it does not matter what other people think. God is the only one that matters. Him and David and I, we are all partners. I think some women are meant to have babies...lots of them. I however, am not. And God does not hate me or think I am a bad person. He loves me and knows me and what I am capable of.

David is making me mashed potatoes and gravy. He is a sweet boy. I have been wanting that all day. Yum.

Oh yeah, please move to PA. It's gorgeous here. It really is.

1 comment

  1. I have a sister who is 18 months younger than me and she's always been one of my best friends. Don't worry about how many kids you plan on having- I definitely think some people are better at handling more kids than others!