It's the beginning...

What a day. What a week. What a few weeks actually.

I have learned SO much on this trip to AZ. It's been my best one so far. I feel like a different person. It's great.

I appreciate my sisters. I learn so much from them. From Steph I have learned a lot. She has said some things this trip that have helped me out greatly. The first being that I cannot control peoples responses. I can only control the way I feel. What a lightbulb in my mind because often times i find myself worrying about what people will say or think about the things I say myself. I'm working on that though.

I have also realized that I need Al-anon. Al-anon is a program for friends and families of alcoholics. It's a support network. It's amazing. In the one meeting I went to, I learned a lot.  I am so proud of my sister for the things she has accomplished there. She got her two year chip on Thurday (happy birthday sis.!) and it has only inspired me to be in the same place two years from now. I realized that alcohol affects and has affected me in ways I don't even realize. But going to those meetings brings to light those things and inspires change. One of the things they talk about is taking care of yourself before you take care of others. Sounds selfish but it really isn't.My sis and I talked about this one day while she was here. There is a scripture that says "Love thy neighbor as thyself." People look over that a lot I think. You have to love yourself before you can love your neighbor... in a good way. Sacrifices can be made for others but should not be made at the expense of your sanity and spirituality.

I love the principles of the gospel. I love the foundations it is built upon. I know they are true. This is not to say I don't struggle with everything else. Right now though, thats not what is important. God and I are working on our relationship and I am so happy. Tonight Josh, Chelsi, Jenny and I encountered some people who had a lot to say about our church. It was such a testimony builder because I was able to say with confidence that I know that what I believe is true for me. Religion is complicated but I am comfortable with my beliefs. And P.S. Mormons are Christians. Thanks.

I'm okay with who I am right now. I'm actually really happy about the place I am in. I'm working out a lot, and eating right (mostly) (thanks again sis.), and I am so confident about the changes i am making and want to make in the near future. Plus, I have a wonderful husband, a dang cute baby, and good friends and family. I am on cloud nine.

I love everyone. Minus old people and slow drivers.

P.S... I LOVE HARRY POTTER (Daniel Radcliffe). Seriously... have you seen him lately? Love him. 

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